Sunday, February 28, 2010

You only get one shot, so let it count...

Ok, so birthday is over, CNY is over..recess week is over...Workload is overwhelming..I have just finished my first midterm, I still got 2 more to go. Argh, recovered from a terrible flu last week. I haven got the chance to workout much due to the intensive revision I have to commit myself too...Well, I feel that I m getting fat, n unhealthy. Argh, GOD help me..I dont wana lose those abs! =(....
I am really excited about paying Universal Studio Sentosa a visit during my holidays..Those rides, architecture just seem so neat and cool..awwww..I will be so mesmerised if I am actually there. Well, I was intending to go there alone, but on seconds thoughts, I think I should find someone to go with me, haven decided who yet..

Well, the past few days have been spent at home, just revising, eating n sleeping. freak, bloody unhealthy..sigh,I knw. Darn going to workout intensitvely after this wed. Recently, I have heard of a few broken r/s around me. Pretty surprise tho, I guess sometimes, r/s are really fragile in a way. I feel that the whole process can be pretty enjoyable n yet tiresome at times. But they always say, when you can find that person that completes you, I guess he's the one for you.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Harpy Birday to Me.

Ok, so I am a year older....that means my metabolism has decreased, I must workout harder to maintain those abs, I need more botox to get away those wrinkles. I must look out for white hair, and etc etc.. AND i must learn to bullshit less...hahaha..

well, I do admit that I have a fear of age-ing.. OMG, I mean, it's just freaky to get older...you will have more responsibility to hold, the pressure of going out to work soon etc. I got the usual greetings and well wishes from my friends. I guess birthdays can be pretty disappointing, as you expect some people to remember your birthdays because you remembered theirs, or you believe that you are important to them, but somehow they just totally were unaware or prolly din bother to drop u their well wishes. Of course, birthdays can be surprising too. I have gotten well wishes from people every year, that I never expect recieve. In fact, it makes me wonder how they found out it was my birthday. These are people I meet once a year?! or even worse, some are people I met 3 years back and haven caught up with them for ages. I guess its just the impact I left on them. On the other hand, people I just smsed the day before, or constantly hang out with, don't even remember. Maybe I am putting too much emphasis on this? Or maybe because the fact that, I take the trouble to remember all the birthdays of people, and send them cards, or treat them to meals, causes me to have expectations? hmm.. I dont know. but i guess to me, birthdays have always been disappointing n surprising.

Nevertheless, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN! hahaha..I have yet to decide what birthday gift to get myself..hmm.. I am eyeing that nice lacoste polo..hmm..we shall see eh..

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

I got fraxeled!



Well, today was the day where I went for my fraxel laser resurfacing. I have done 3 other laser resurfacing before, but they were of another different version of laser, called pixel. This latest one, is suppose to be stronger, n more effective. So my doctor said, hey why don't u try it out? So i said, why not..

So i went down to his clinic in town. He discussed with me the complications and the entire whole procedure, then I proceed to wash my face. After that, I put on this numbing cream which was suppose to reduce the pain. The word here is REDUCE, mind you. So, I was lead to his room of 'torture'. There was a comfortable bed in the middle of the bizarre looking instruments, and yet soft classical music in the background. He came in, and said, " kelvin, so are you sure you wana proceed with this? I mean it's ur birthday tomorrow after all, and the pain invovled is much greater." I stared at him for a little while, and I thought since I already here, there's no point turning back, argh..just go with it. And I said, " doc, just proceed.."
Then he turned the key, which started up the machine. A whirring sound set in, which should be the exhaust fan. He was keying in some stuff on the touch screen display. Dressed in a white coat, don-ing a mask, and protective shades for his eyes, he seemed too professional. Basically the whole system works with a handpiece which he holds that has a built in vacuum pump that sucks up the odour from the burn skin tissue. Beside the nozzle of the vacuum pump, theres's an plastic extension ring that comes into contact with the skin. Any skin surface that is within the inner surface ring, will be scanned by an optic fibre built into the handpiece to how uneven the skin area is, and the beam of laser shoots down to even every small spot of the skin. The procedure started, and I couldnt help but tear. It was a reflex action, and not because of the pain. Though there was still pain, but bearable. I guess with 3 other laser surfacing, countless IPLs n microdermabrasions, my face is kinda numb to pain. Not to mention, the number of injections my poor face had to endure the past few years..sigh..

So I spent most of the time during the procedure chatting with my doctor, to distract myself from the pain and boredom. When everything was all over. He gave me his blessings and some final word of caution before his nurse attended to me. My entire face was given a cleanse with antiseptic, and I was finally DONE! (the photo above is almost identical to the procedure I went through, its just that the people there are not me, they are americans!) =)
Walked outta the room, made the payment and got fetched home.

Now my face is raw and puffy. I feel really tired too..I pray for the best and hope everything goes well.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Ching Chong Chung Ding Dong Deng

Its the eve of CNY..but theres not much zest in me..Maybe because I am turning 22 in a couple of days time. And I got much work to be done and submitted after my one week break....Or maybe my grandparents arent around anymore. Its strange that I associate CNY with them. I guess the mentality is that old people are more traditional, and its the traditional CNY that brings back memories. I dont knw man, it just feels so empty these days for festive times like CNY. When I was in pri sch, or even sec sch, there was just so much to look forward to. I begin looking forward to CNY like weeks before the day. I was so excited about the celebrations in schs and with teachers. I remembered, everybody got to bring 2 oranges back. I also missed those celebrations with the navy which was just full of scrumptous buffets and nice goodie bags. Has education life sucked the zest and zealous outta me?

Well, I have just had my reunion dinner. And here I am blogging. Which shouldnt be the case. But as I have grown older, and got thru the education of life, I tend to look forward to the future, and build on my current establishment to achieve realistic goals.So much so, that I do not really care about all these in-material stuff anymore.

Oh yea, and tmrw is valentine's day. I always feel that valentine's day is a scam. Because, restaurants will take the opportunity to raise the prices to exhorbitant rates, and cheat all the young loving couples out day.Saying that, I wonder is it a good thing for me not to be a victim for the scam, since I have never celebrated v day all my life. Well, as much as i longed to find a suitable partner, I gotta admit that I haven put in any effort to do so. Besides, with my comitment to sch work , n personal stuff, I find that I might not be able to give the person enough time. And the other thing is that I fear rejection, maybe that why I never bother to try. I afraid that the person isnt who or what I think. But my frend told me today, he said if u don't try, it wld be 0% chance, but if you try, there's still hope.
I guess he's right. Maybe I should summon that courage to ask you. I so fear that you would get irked by the fact that someone of my calibre would even think of asking you out, I so fear that you would just look at me in disgust and say sorry, you got the wrong person. I so fear that I am not good enough. I guess I should push aside those fears, and try, because as a friend said, when you dare, you can get your happiness. And so maybe the nxt v day, I will really get to celeb with someone. As much as I would wana push the boundaries and find someone for company n affection, I also hope that I can find the right person, that person that have so much chemistry that we are just so happy, talking and laughing whenever we are together, someone who shares similar passion of paying it forward and helping me with my plans to help the less fortunate in the future, someone who is just so part of me that has good looks and nice physique. Maybe that person is right in front of me, staring at me, or even texting me. Just that prolly I haven done the appropriate things yet....I dont know. I will just leave that to GOD to show me the way....

Happy V day Pple! (>

wah lau what a week...

WELL, well..this week have been quite tiring and annoying and stressful. I mean, it all started off with the econs quiz on thurs, then came the managerial econs excel assignment for fri. This 2 was enuf to keep me on my feet thru the whole week. Why so? Cuz I just suck with excel, I guess I just have this fear of opening it up and see so many blank grids staring back at me. I just feel so lost n helpless with that programme. And the prof just throws it to us, and expect us to do it. Without teaching us how to really use excel.
Then there was the econs quiz to handle. Well, for me, its just needing to do well and be at the top of the foodchain. I dun knw, i just cant stand being lousy and in the bottom few..tt's all.

Recently there has been a lot of hoo-hah on religions etc etc blah blah blah. Well, to start of with, I am an acadmic, and I believe in GOD. To sole creator of the universe n man-kind. However, i believe that religions are man-made, and its a social construct which man creates to give them a sense of belonging n psychological assurance to something. My personal point of view is that I advocate any religion as long as they provide good teachings for their followers, to love and care for each other, to provide for the unfortunate, to help and share what they have around them etc etc..Basically the love n goodness that god would want his children to posses and spread. And so, I believe that most religions in the world, or my country promote that. Thus I dont see the reason why that one religion should stand out and condemn the rest of the religions judging by the fact that their god is superior and almighty and other religions are being puppeted by devils, evil etc. Why is that religion so scared or against or threatened by the presence of other religions? and has to engage audiences to not follow that religion and theirs? Doesnt tt religion promote the same values of goodness as yours? The grounds might differ, but the consensus shld stay similiar. I believe that religions are inocent, its humans who the ones that are guilty whom misinterprete information and take matters into their own hands, and pretend that they are some 'saint' or matyr and carry out some stupid crazy act. To me, I feel religions have been a curse and a blessing.
But to me, I trust in my god,who has given me love and guidance all this while, and I am very sure HE wouldnt want his children to discriminate and hate each other because of the different ways thru cultural, or race that people have decided to worship him in. In fact, I strongly believe that its a SIN to use GOD's name to condemn people or other religions or matters, because that person is NOT GOD, and so he doesnt have any right to speak on behalf of the ALMIGHTY..even if he's a religious leader, we mustnt forget that he is only human, and he's as flawed n imperfect as anyone of us.Dont you feel that GOD would be disappointed in you if you are saying things that would reflect of his unconditional love and care of his children? Dont you feel that you are using GOD's name to create hatred, chaos and discrimination that the devil wants? Now, who's the one that is being puppeted by the devil that indirectly appears to use GOD name to make himself sound holy, when using this name just causes conflict n disharmony? That's for you to think and decide... peace out. For the love of GOD...

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Oh Boy...

Well, to start of with, I cant really remember what I did on Fri, so i cant really talk much abt it...hmm, well yesterday, was spent doing lotsa revision on econs. I got another econs quiz coming out nxt week..sigh..its nvr ending..And I was a good boy, staying at home, saving my parent's money, and studying with the intermittance of facebooking, msning, eating, smsing, etc. But it was still rather productive. I finished 2 pages of textbook. Basically they were telling me about the introduction of how macro-econs came about.. LOL..dam i m kidding lah..it was good lah..revision.
Then I had a random chat with my friend, and we juz brought up this academic writing topic if gays and lesbians should be given marriage rights? And what he said was, there's nothing wrong with spending your life with someone that you want..and that's what marriage is all about. And I totally agree. Besides, homosexuality and bisexuality has been concluded that its been part of the sexuality variant of humans by scientists after thorough intensive research. As much as people didnt choose to be born straight, they didnt choose to be born gay. I believe that its so wrong and unethical to deny someone his/her love for someone else. And because so many of them have been denied this right, they lead very depressed and pitiful lives. Just like all the majority of straight people, they just dont want to spent their lives alone, living as what you all believe is 'right' of them so that they wont be called 'sick'. Doesnt all religions preach to love, and share and spread this love? But we are not, we are using our very own religious views to condemn these people.. Treating them as an abomination. To the fundamentalists n misguided people, shame on you. And to those who lead n preach for people to condemn these people, i believe that you are serving the devil instead, because by doing so you create discrimination, hatred, n lost of lives which is what the devil wants, chaos. I pray for GOD to enlighten these misguided people, and to be merciful in judging them, and to lift off the sufferings from people who have already been discriminated n hated for gender, race and sexuality sake.

I am blessed that I have such intellectual and enlightened friends. Moving on, today was exhausting. Had a hectic gym schedul today. Was pulled down by my gym buddy to hit the weights. He keep adding the weights while assisting. Thanks pal =D. I think i will feel the aches tmrw again! hehe..And after that rushed down to vivo city for a dinner apptment with my tjc mates. Its good to see them after sooo long. Hmm, we ate at Kim Gary restaurant after much negeotiations. It wasnt dat great.. The food was mediocre. It's just tt u dun really get such kinda food everywhere which makes it unique lah I guess..Then after tt, we just strolled around, sat on the grass patch on the 3rd level to count stars..and that's it lor..

Need to head to see the doctor tmrw! ciao

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Fact of Love

I believe that we often keep our emotions n feelings to ourselves, and that's what refraining us from getting to know each other better. You are not sure if I am who you think I am, and I am not sure if I think that whom you really are..I could see that things are holding you back, from saying what you really wana say, or touch me the way you want..I am equally afraid to do something that may cross the line that I feel it shouldnt be, if you are not who i think you are.
But when i can feel you so strongly, and sense the chemistry that I believe you cant get with someone else, maybe we are both right. Maybe we should break the walls, screw the barrier, drop the formality, and just come clean. And just say what we want, and be whom we really wana be. Then we will reach a certain level of happiness n pleasure that only doing such can we achieve.
But for now, we are just waiting, and assuming, and susepcting, and judging. Will we ever get anyway? Or maybe you alrdy know it, then what's holding you back? You are doubting if you are whom i think i am..then let me tell you, yes, I am who you think I am. If you have alrdy put in so much effort to know me, then come claim ur prize. I dun believe in sheer concidences, or planning. I believe you came into my life upon fate.

Whatever it is, choose what's best for yourself. Always remember that, as long as you love, you have hope.Believe in us. Believe in love...

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

3210

Well, you must be wondering about my blog title..and if you look at today's date, then you would prolly figure that out! 3/2/10. Strangely unique n rare, but many of us wouldnt bother to ever take notice about it. So I had my first accounting quiz of the sem today.... #$*$*&@#^$@&(!
Yup, that's what I have to say abt tt.. to translate it to more civilised terms, it was really tough.. I gotta admit, I skipped some parts of studying, but still, I was really complex and mind boggling..and my brain juice have dried up for the week... HOW TO STUDY ECONS OVER THE WKEND? hmm, the only way they say to replenish brain juice is to go intensive retail therapy! =D esp during the CNY round the corner, there's really lotsa reasons to shop...as in LOTSA reasons. U can always tell ur mum, if new year no new clothes, bad luck whole year round! Exams flung, GPA down! everything low low low low. So ur parents gives u few hundred bucks n u can go buy some clothes from the new mandarin gallery! lol.
Back to accounting, well, morale n ego shattered.. always tort tt we or i were very zai at accounting..looks like we met our match lor. sianz.. I knw there wld be moderation, but I guess it juz made me feel very stupid suddenly that i couldnt do those qns.. Think I m going to play some l4d 2..vent some frustration...till then..byies!

ARGH

Accounting quiz tmrw! Muz chiong and do well... Nxt week still got econs quiz... n essay assignment to hand up! =( goodbye wkends!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Grammys MAC BREAKFAST..and WTF

And so today was the grammy's!!!! yippee...i finally get to watch it LIVE..so happy.. =) and i get to see those wonderful performances by others...Had lovely mac breakfast with a frend who came over in the morn after his guard duty...and we enjoyed black eye pea performance, which we prolly turned it up a little louder than the other perforamnces with the sub-woofer booming abt.